Yesterday we remembered Andrew on the 1 year anniversary of his death. We took his favorite cookies to the nurses to thank them for their care, we gathered at his grave and laid down flowers and spoke heartfelt words about how much we love and miss him. We toasted Andrew over lunch as a family and then opened our home to family and a few friends so we could be together, share and laugh. We watched the slideshow from his memorial service and we were again reminded of Andrew's incredible smile, his many accomplishments and mostly his warm and loving persona. He had many friends and many whom loved him. He inspired people to be their best. He did all this in just 33 years of life. We were honored to call him brother, son and friend. We miss him in a deep and painful way. I'm not quite sure that feeling will ever go away. As my mom said yesterday at his grave, it might not get easier or better, it will just be different and we will learn to live with our grief. Of course we will all carry on and keep living life, but we are learning to make room for that pit in our stomach and that aching hole in our heart.
We miss you Andrew. I kept imagining how happy you would have been to be with us yesterday - smiling, laughing, talking and telling jokes. Those were your favorite moments in life. I ache for all those times, the simple moments when we were just doing life together. Thank you for being the coolest person I know.