If you were here, today on your birthday, I would tell you how much I love you and how ever since the moment I watched your soul leave your body I have never been the same. I would tell you that I'm afraid of living the rest of my life without you. I'm afraid I will forget all of our memories and stories. I'm afraid I won't know who I am or know which way to turn, because you were always there with the wisdom and insight and perspective. I would tell you all about my kids and how funny they are and how proud you would be of them. I would tell you all the boring details of my life, because you cared, and were the best chatting friend a girl could have. I would tell you that I long and ache for you with every cell in my body. I have physical responses to my grief - my breath is literally taken away several times a week when I realize that you are really gone forever.
Happy Birthday Andrew. I love you always.
